Anonymous Story (II)

"When I Finally Began to Choke"

So I am a 19-year-old female who has been in and out of psychiatric hospitals for various mental health/eating disorders. One time when I was 16, I was in the psychiatric ward. After some bad behavior, I was placed in restraints. They immediately gave me two needles in my arms. I began to scream. I was too scared to stop screaming, so they gave me two more. My jaw began to lock and I started trying to call for help. They thought that I needed to calm down so they gave me another sedative in my right thigh. [I was at five total.]

 

My jaw and neck locked and I stopped screaming and just began to silently cry. I then began to vomit everywhere and since my neck had locked, I couldn't swallow. Yet since I was in restraints, I couldn't sit up to clear my throat either. I started to choke. That's when they finally let me up. Not when I was crying for help. But when I finally began to choke.